Why does food have to be such a big issue in my life?
In my last post I wrote that I was eating cooked vegetarian again, which I have been doing, and I know it’s terrible for both my physical and mental health. When I am on cooked vegetarian or vegan I feel just like I did when I was struggeling with eating disorders and depression a couple of years ago.
So why does it have to be so hard for me to just eat 100% raw food?

I am addicted to all the wrong kinds of food, and it doesn’t help that my family is filled with gourmands. Food have always been a big part of my life – I love everybody in my family, and I love all the amazing food I’ve eaten. But I know it’s not good for me, I feel it with every fiber in my body. But addictions is hard to overcome, I did it with smoking (had been a smoker since the age of 15, until 18 months ago), it’s the same with the medicine I was on for my depression, and my supposedly bipolar disorder (which was actually never 100% confirmed – and it turned out to be very minor right hemisphere brain damage that I was born with) I quit all the medicine without any problems at all. So why is it so much harder with food?!?

Some of the hardest things to give up on for me is cheese, Ben & Jerry’s ice cream and baked goods. I can go raw for about a month without missing anything but cheese or cake, and when I start craving cheese I can’t control myself, I feel I’m going crazy if I don’t have just a slice of cheese – which very quickly turns into a whole lot more. I have a feeling my body is screaming for trypthophan, and I try to eat something raw vegan rich in trypthophan, but I need something with a taste similar to cheese to get over my serious cravings.
With baked goods it’s actually not bad until I smell something wonderfully sweet or my eye catches a pretty cupcake, I have always been a baking diva. It is such a big part of who I am, and I have such a hard time replacing that part of me with something else or something similar but healthy.
About the Ben & Jerry’s, I’m currently planning to make some raw vegan versions of my favorite B&J’s ice cream. I have a feeling that it’s gonna be easy for me to get over those cravings, they are after all minor compared to the cheese and the baked goods.

If anybody have some wise words or some amazing recipe for raw vegan seed/nut cheese that taste just a bit like real cheese, please let me know. I can use all the support I can get.

Namaste,
Sanne.

My mom have through all my life tried to teach me about the ladder, taking one step at a time – and starting from step one. It is no secret that I have always tried to start at the top, that counts in everything I do in life.
This raw food project of mine is no exception, I have thrown myself in at the deep end and hoped I could swim. I have now after several tries realised that I need to take things REALLY slow for it to work.

So right now I am back on cooked vegetarian, but I am also drinking 1 liter green smoothie every single day. Simply to let my body decide and tell me when it’s ready to go further – because I know deep inside myself that the raw food lifestyle is perfect for me.

I think that is the only way for me to get to 100% raw someday.

2 bananas
1 cup raspberries
Green leaves of 1 bunch of Pak Choy
2 cups filtered water

This is just a quick post to tell you all about an amazing link I found on re-nest.com.

rubbishfreeyear.com, that site is so inspiring, and shows how easy it is to do something good for mother nature.

2 frozen bananas
1 cup/250 ml sesame milk
1 1/2 tbsp carob
1 tbsp tocotrienols (optional)
2 1/2 tbsp raw cacao powder or nibs
2 tbsp maple syrup or honey

Blend everything in the Vita-mix for about a minute and serve.

10 dried apricots
8 dates
2 tbsp lucumapowder
2 tbsp pinenuts
2 tbsp liquorice root powder
1/4 tsp salt

Run everything in the food processor until a ball forms, roll into small truffles and cool in the fridge for at least 15 minutes. You could roll them in liquorice powder before putting them in the fridge.

2 bananas
4 dates
1 cup/250 ml frozen raspberries
1 cup/250 ml sesame milk
1 small handful kale

Blend everything in the Vita-mix or other high-speed blender, and enjoy.

It is time to reveal my new hair, here it is:

I’m not sure if it qualifies as a mohawk or a fauxhawk – but I think it’s kickass cool.
It’s amazing how a change of hair style can make you feel like a brand new person, it has sure made me feel free again – the shell I spoke about yesterday is finally broken. I’m ready for anything life throws at me, bring it on \m/

Namaste,
Sanne.

This blog has been on hiatus for quite a while now, but I am now back in action.

Below is a picture of me taken yesterday, that is the shell I’ve been trapped in – a shell I don’t like one bit. So now it’s time for a change.

Today I’m doing something about my hair, I’m not gonna tell what, but I’ll post a picture of it later today.

Namaste,
Sanne